Last night we went to the Sq’s house for a surprise party for Nash. I started out not sure if that was really where I should be, but by the end I was so thankful God had brought me there. At first Mrs. Sq was serving biryani to everyone, and then Mr. Sq put on some music and people were getting up and dancing… some of it was funny. Then the music stopped and we began to sing – praise and worship songs, veggietales, etc. Richard suggested we play a game, so he organized a game of Assassin (Murder She Winked, Wink Murder, same thing…). We got tired of that after a few rounds and played Bus Stop (freeze frame, park bench) for around 2 hours. I wish I had had a video camera. Most of the time we were laughing hysterically. Especially when Nathan and Steven were up together. The last game we played was signs, which Cait won. Most of us went outside, and I joined in the basketball game, but eventually I got too tired to play anymore, so I went inside. I wanted to find Rachel, and found her in Nash’s room, with a whole bunch of others. Kenneth was playing the guitar, Wes was drumming on the little drum, and they were singing, praying and sharing. I wish I had been there for more of it… but even that little bit… it made me cry. I see in myself something I don’t see in most of my friends in the states – since Desert Challenge, God had filled me with a fire for Him. And I want to see that in my friends in the states. I want to be the one to bring that fire to them. My sister and I prayed and talked for the longest time, and then I prayed on my own for a while. My friend and I talked a bit about that on the ride back home, and when she had been sitting and praying while I was, God had shown her a passage in the Bible, Psalms 71, and we were talking about that… it’s one of my favorite passages now. But anyways, I got home, and late as it was – it was midnight by the time I got to bed – I just opened up my Bible and prayer journal… and read and prayed. I had gotten a book called “A Treasury of Miracles for Teens” out of our Church library, and I’d read a chapter of that and pray and read some of my Bible… and then do it again. It was one a.m. when I finally closed my Bible and went to sleep. I only got 6 hours of sleep last night. But God’s giving me strength to make it through today… and it was the first time I’d ever really and truly sensed His prescence in a place where I was alone. We’d all sensed it earlier, when we were having a worship session… but before then it was only when I was with a bunch of others that I really felt on fire for God… and now it was when I was alone, also. God is absolutely incredible… I was hesitant to go to the party that night, and at first I was starting to regret going until we started singing earlier on in the day, and then played games… but when I was really sure that was where God wanted me to be was when we were in that little room, all singing and praying.
Oh God, you’re an awesome God you reign, from Heaven above with wisdom power and love, my God you’re an awesome God…
In you, O Lord, do I take refuge; let me never be put to shame!
In your righteousness deliver me and rescue me; incline your ear to me, and save me!
Be to me a rock of refuge, to which I may continually come;
you have given the command to save me, for you are my rock and my fortress.
Resecue me, O my God, from the hand of the wicked,
from the grasp of the unjust and cruel man.
For you, O Lord, are my hope, my trust, O Lord, from my youth.
Upon you I have leaned from before my birth;
You are he who took me from my mother’s womb.
My praise is continually of you. I have been as a portent to many,
But you are my strong refuge. My mouth is filled with your praise,
and with your glory all the day. Do not cast me off in the time of old age,
forsake me not when my strength is spent. For my enemies speak concerning me,
those who watch for my life consult together and say,
“God has forsaken him; pursue and seize him, for there is none to deliver him.”
O God, be not far from me; O my God, make haste to help me!
May my accusers be put to shame and consumed;
with scorn and disgrace may they be covered who seek my hurt.
But I will hope continually and will praise you yet more and more.
My mouth will tell of your righteous acts,
Of your deeds of salvation all the day, for their number is past my knowledge.
With the mighty deeds of the Lord God I will come;
I will remind them of your righteousness, yours alone.
O God, from my youth gou have taught me,
And I still proclaim your wondrous deeds.
So even to old age and gray hairs, O God, do not forsake me,
Until I proclaim your might to another generation, Your power to all those to come.
Your righteousness, O God, reaches the high heavens.
You who have done great things, O God, who is like you?
You who have made me see many troubles and calamities will revive me again;
From the depths of the earth you will bring me up again.
You will increase my greatness and comfort me again.
I will also praise you with the harp for your faithfullness, O my God;
I will sing praises to you with the lyre, O Holy One of Israel.
My lips will shout for joy, when I sing praises to you;
my soul also, which you have redeemed.
And my tongue will talk of your righteous help all the day long,
for they have been put to shame and disappointed who sought to do me hurt.